Bathing in the Ganges in Rishikesh, India.
It’s a rather large task to choose a topic to
write about after two months of exploration, transformation and
learning. I know for sure that I’m different than I was before venturing
to India but really, I’m pretty sure being different is an immeasurable
personal phenomenon that we all encounter everyday we wake up to our
In two months of living, breathing, eating, pooping, practicing and studying yoga – I have transformed in ways that feel so big but actually can’t be seen or touched in and of themselves. Maybe if some energy scientist had taken an aura-subtle-vibes meter reading of me pre and post adventure, they’d be able to see on a graph the physical manifestations of my changes. However, I didn’t know such a person before departing and anyhow, I see now how unnecessary external validation really is. When you know something, when you truly know it in the depths of your soul, then it doesn’t matter what anyone else says, even if they are an energy scientist.
I knew so many thing before leaving that lived in my head and limbs, but hadn’t completely permeated my heart and soul. There’s a marked difference between knowing and integrating and once knowledge and beliefs become embodied, they become a part of you that cannot easily fall away or be dissuaded.
5 Lessons in Transformation
I feel like all the fibres of my physical and spiritual being have been soaked in lightness; both the lightness that makes things visible and the one that makes things weightless.
1. I accept myself now as an instrument of pure
consciousness and divine creation. I know that I am connected to
everything that was, that is and that will be. Because of this, I can
just be myself utterly and completely. There’s nothing to be ashamed of,
afraid of, worried about or scared of when you are god. Booya. ||
Seeing your own godliness is the epitome of liberation.
2. I’ve embraced that my mind is just my mind. It’s
no biggy. When I’m all thinky or busy-headed, it doesn’t seem like such
a big deal now. In the past, I’d often be irked by my monkey mind. It
felt like an obstacle to overcome. Now, it’s just a part of the equation
– no more, no less. ||
Shifts happen. Don’t get stuck believing that the way you are is the way you are.
After dipping in the Ganges, your body and soul feel enlivened and fresh.
3. Sitting is my friend. Even though it’s not a
cake walk (it’s actually just sitting there, no cake in sight),
meditation is a key to the kingdom. I sat every morning by 5:20am and I
sat and sat some more and sometimes, I slipped into that evasive little
place of full connection – meditation. And you know what? the more I
do/did it, the more I get there. ||
Fake it ’til you make it.
4. I trust myself. Doubting my abilities, my gifts
and path – all that’s been a pretty steadfast way of life for me. I
downplayed my intuitive abilities for years and chalked a lot up to
imagination. Now though, after being surrounded by spirituality and
seeing some stuff that most would deem “crazy ass shit,” I’m a full on
believer. Having opened myself up totally to receive the gifts of cosmic
energy, I feel so much trust. ||
Explore and understand doubt. Know where it comes from and why you carry it. Only then can you truly step into the expansiveness of trust.
5. I acknowledge this life as part of a much
larger picture. The planet, dinosaurs, trilobites, ancient microbes,
wars, lovers, revolutions, evolutions – man, we’ve seen some stuff. This
is just one life in a trajectory of who knows how many. This life is
precious. It’s a gift and it’s a glorious thing. I do believe though
that there is far more to this whole living and dying game than what
meets the eye. |